To Blog or Not to Blog....

     I've been thinking now for some time about starting a blog, but I'm not sure what to blog about. Do I need a particular subject or can it just be random thoughts? Can I say anything I want in a blog or should I leave out the personal stuff?  Do I publish it under a pseudonym so I don't offend anyone with my deepest and darkest secrets? Do I even know how to blog? Am I a decent writer? I mean, I've taken a few creative writing classes and I've written about 50 songs, but does that make me a writer? I never did take AP English in High School because I grew tired of writing papers in the middle of the night. However, I did get all As in English and American literature classes, if that's good for anything. My boyfriend tells me my best writing is when I'm angry and I have something to say and I let it all out in a stream of consciousness flow. He says that's when I am most focused. That's also when I get into the most trouble (note to self: wait 24 hours before hitting the "send, post, or publish" button).  I'm not even sure I remember proper syntax (what does that mean anyway?), grammar, how to use imagery and metaphors, and all the other creative stuff that makes one a great writer. So, after mulling all of this over the last several months, I thought to myself, why not just write and write and write, and then decide? Nothing wrong with journaling every day, but I'm not sure I want the whole world to read my diary. And something else that's been in the back of my mind (I know, don't start a sentence with "And")--last summer, on my 51st birthday, my dear friend Suzanne wished me Happy Birthday on my Facebook page, and also thanked me for "Living Fiercely." I was so touched by this, it really is one of the best compliments I've ever received.  I knew just what she meant. I live passionately and powerfully, I am sensitive and defensive and unconventional and outside of the box and I take chances and pursue my dreams--sometimes, most of the time, to a fault. I seldom think of the consequences to this kind of living, I don't always make the most practical decisions, and it is a life fraught with turmoil and sadness and tears and fears and not always success. However, it is also a life filled with incredible moments of bliss, adventure, beauty, art, love, and deep connections. When I fall I fall hard, but when I look back on what led me to the fall, I am filled with memories of an amazing journey. When I get back up, sometimes even after months of not being able to get myself out of bed,  it is with a fierce vengeance and I start all over again. I dream big and set goals and aspire to reach them, and even if I don't get there (which is most of the time),  I enjoy the ride. I love to take on new projects and then not finish them, which I suppose makes me a Jack of Many Trades, Master of Few. I can't tell you how many times I've tried to learn french, guitar, tennis, photoshop, and a myriad of other silly skills. I don't have a career path so to speak, I just bounce around between music and  teaching and bookkeeping and writing and restaurant work and whatever else I can do to make ends meet. It makes my life extremely stressful and wonderfully interesting at the same time. Unfortunately, I suffer from chronic migraines, but despite the toll it's taken on my quality of life, I still try hard to make the most of my good days. That's what life is all about, right?  So, I have decided l will write the blog, and like everything else I do, I will write it from my heart.  I don't think I will pick a particular subject or theme, I will just write about the many things I love and am inspired by-like music and nature and health and family and relationships and, yes, sometimes, politics. Not so much political facts, but how politics affect the current state of the world we live in (which sadly is not so great as of late).  I may just write about anything on any given day that is affecting my world. Most of all, I will write the same way I live: Fiercely.  So- this is my first blog, and it really is just an introduction to me and my fierceness and my great big heart. I hope you will enjoy, relate to, and be inspired by my forthcoming blogs. Remember, I live and write fiercely, so read at your own discretion. 
Peace, Love, and Namasté,
Sunnie